What a Sat.Ur.Day…

And today was going to be another day that I was not going to write on this thing… I was lying in bed, not being able to sleep, with the duvet on top of me, keeping me way too hot… so I take a thin sheet to cover me instead and pretend to sleep. But somehow Morpheus doesn’t come to me, and I keep staring at the ceiling. Oh…. That’s when it hit me! I had to write, let things off my head. Today I didn’t do my usual job search, but it’s ok right? I mean, it’s Saturday, that’s allowed. After a long night yesterday, I just needed a long rest today. With some hummus, carrots, and a slice or two of Tesco’s finest pizza… I was ready to hit nirvana. Just lying on the couch, watching a couple of films and letting, for that moment, all my troubles go by focussing on the troubles of the movie characters. My God, they had it worse! But my reality is my reality, and I still want better for my life. Last week I finished two sketches for radio jingles, and I don’t know if they are ok. But at least they are done. I’m desperate for a job. You have no idea, whoever you are. I’m even considering going back to the Off to Work thing. Seriously… Until I can get something better. When is it going to get better? What can I do? How about trying harder, right? That’s right. Keep on writing, practicing, not losing hope. and most importantly, some more self-belief. I definitely want and need… some of Jon’s and Justin’s ego.