Mermaid Day
It’s not the end of the day but I can describe it as a Mermaid Day. Today is the day that I woke up and for some reason I felt so anxious that my brain was going to explode. Don’t understand why as yesterday was a quiet night. ( Long gone are the days of excessive drinking and eating) until the weekend, that is!
My alarm rang early and for an hour I was singing in my head, like a madwoman. Until I just faced my fate as a mermaid in the ocean and swam through my anxiety and fears by running. I left the house and started running, though this couldn’t last long as my right leg ached from yesterday. somehow I had to slow it down and just walked. I walked for more than an hour with nothing but my thoughts to distract me. As I walked I stopped and hugged trees, tried some of the exercise thingys in the park and ended my meditative walk by lying on the grass on my back, feeling the sun shining on my face. As I walked, memories and thoughts flashed in my head. I was lying still, and for just a second I found peace. Suddenly it got me: . I need determination to blend into my character. If I just had some more of that, along with a few other virtues, I would be a diamond. But I am not. I am a rough carbon that needs years of years and a lot of work to transform into that beautiful diamond that I wish to become one day. Having said that, the Chaos in my life has been a great teacher. Nonetheless, it is time to let it go and get another one: Order, perhaps.
Yes, order! that’s the one, along with a few other things.
I have a certain lifestyle, you have a certain lifestyle, we all do and somehow we are judgmental of others' lifestyles as well. Why? This I still don’t know. One thing I have to say; I don’t approve of politicians’ lifestyle. There, I said it. Whoever they might be for some reason I don’t like how they carry on and treat others. All this can change, someday. Until then, we are dazed into the fog of modern days. These modern days in which people are seduced by so many different things. Random things like muscles, curls, status, religion, politics even. Me particularly, I am seduced by melody and drama.
With this melody and drama I live my life, and fit rhythm there whenever possible.
The truth is, looking deep into it, most people don’t approve of my lifestyle. At least that’s what it seems.
Anyways I don’t really care anymore. Although, what it seems might not be what it really is.
I want red chewing gum.
